5:28 P.M. - Friday, Mar. 09, 2007
Tired, worried, no answers, more questions
My visit with Dr. Gloom was a chat session not an appointment. He was vague I hate that. He chatted not about what might be going on but my frame of mind, attitude and tolerance to now having a month of chronic pain behind me. No relief at the moment as they are not sure what they found.

�An abnormity on the number 2 sacral bone in my lower spine. (huh?) �

Ok I asked best and worst case scenario? He hasn�t one, except just maybe (highly unlikely) I might have a fracture on the bone, if so it would be difficult to treat as it is out of their expertise. A bone Dr. would be consulted, that would beIF that is the problem.

I was sent to the emergency ward (no appointment this time) at the hospital and they did a CAT scan. I had to only wait 2.5 hours as they most generously worked me into an already busy afternoon. There had been a car crash that morning. {I pray no one passed}

The CAT scan guy tried to call my Dr before I escaped but Doctor Doom was at lunch until 1:00, �no thank you I�ll head on home and see him as scheduled first thing Monday morning.� I was allowed to go home. Sigh�

I did get a glowing report from the chitchat with my Physician who by the way is awesome, never mind my reference to Doom/Gloom�I try to find humor in all things. Keeps me sane, or insane whichever gets me through the moment.

He said he knew I would fight him about going back to work and his answer would remain, �NO!� {Where is his blasted humor?} But he added I would heal quicker as I was a determined and hardheaded patient that wanted nothing more than my life back to some sort of normality. No promises were given, no icing on a cake. Hell no cake. Get through one day at a time. He promised best he could I would know something Monday and from there decide best road to take.

This is out of my hands, so I wait again.

I�m a bit numb right now and tired, what a long day what a long wait.

I keep thinking it is all going to be ok, just another chapter in the book of my life and those close to me.

Deep breaths now turn the page.

Sandyz

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