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2:27 P.M. - Sunday, Apr. 03, 2011 Like hidden treasure that might not be worth a dime�but it feels like it has a worth. Or maybe something lost? Forgotten? Buried? Was it blown away in the sands of time or did it settle deep within the blue? Questions without answers because the inquisition is unclear. I lack motivation�the house is a mess. I lack inspiration�I listen to music and can�t remember the words. I lack creativity�I attend art class and come home empty handed. I lack ambition�I haven�t a clue what I want to do today let alone tomorrow. I am not depressed�I just lack direction. Don�t know where I want to be�here? There? No where. I don�t know what I like to eat�every day I get closer to vegan. I haven�t eaten any meat products from the day I got back from Indy�except 1% milk�then again who cares�doesn�t mean a thing. It has nothing to do with the future�goals, what I want to accomplish, where I want to end up. Maybe for awhile I�ll just sail along�maybe something will enlighten me and the will to pick up the oars and map my course will be stronger than comfort of just living in the moment. Maybe�maybe not. Sandyz
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