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2:36 A.M. - Sunday, Oct. 04, 2009 My visual could be compared to hearing that a loved one has moved from this world to the next�our minds can not acknowledge that�when we see the person the knowing replaces all doubt. When we hear of someone�s sickness often times it isn�t real until we gaze upon them and comprehend their disease has placed a root. There is no explanation why the visual I witnessed haunted me as it did, why I couldn�t close my eyes to sleep and not see the image and often found myself walking the night. I didn�t nor do I feel the impulse to talk about it�no one should understand my reaction, and that is ok with me. It is a personal demon I live with�we all have them and deal in a private way. I spent enough time in the darkness to come to terms with a part of life that doesn�t feel real�can�t be altered or unraveled�choices someone made that constantly makes ripples that effect us across the ever flowing seas of time. During this phase I was reminded of something I read; �The sorrow which has no vent in tears may make other organs weep.� Also deep within the pain I knew� �The dark today leads into light tomorrow; There is no endless joy,�and no endless sorrow.� Today I stand in the light. Sandyz
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