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9:55 P.M. - Friday, Aug. 22, 2008 My mind is always in motion while I listen to the sounds along the country road, I try to keep myself focused and try not to allow my awareness to go further than my feet, this is for me is a time of meditation and at times it feels as though I am trying to hold back storms that take shape within my thoughts. I was wondering if everyone�s thinking was like a noise box that wouldn�t stay quite. Are there other people that find their observations zigzagging from the past to present and then rocketing into the future? I find myself analyzing everything from a broken tree branch to things that happened years ago. If I had a mind recorder I would have hundreds of stories that take shape along the hard road. Yesterday I was lost in thought when I came to a road marker I had no memory of walking past two that had to have preceded it. I tried to quite my mind but found myself bewildered as to how I was able to pass places I see each day without realizing it. There are times I conger up images in my mind that has never happened and question what I would do or how I might react if they came to be. I feel all emotions and act them out within my minds eye feeling joy if it is something wonderful, profound sadness if it�s a dark place I visit. I wondered if all folks have minds that rage out of control and speculated what it might be like to think about things as they came to be�to live within the moment, not looking back or forward. I have tried to think about each moment in time as it unfolds but it felt as if I was leaning against a huge dam holding back flood waters. When I stepped away I could feel a surge of thoughts as the wall bursts apart sometimes sending me to dark places other times filling me with joy. It all depends on the feelings I held back. In the morning after two cups of coffee and I�ll be in my hiking shoes�wonder where my feet or mind will take me. Sandyz
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