My mind is always in motion while I listen to the sounds along the country road, I try to keep myself focused and try not to allow my awareness to go further than my feet, this is for me is a time of meditation and at times it feels as though I am trying to hold back storms that take shape within my thoughts. I was wondering if everyone’s thinking was like a noise box that wouldn’t stay quite. Are there other people that find their observations zigzagging from the past to present and then rocketing into the future? I find myself analyzing everything from a broken tree branch to things that happened years ago. If I had a mind recorder I would have hundreds of stories that take shape along the hard road.
Yesterday I was lost in thought when I came to a road marker I had no memory of walking past two that had to have preceded it. I tried to quite my mind but found myself bewildered as to how I was able to pass places I see each day without realizing it.
There are times I conger up images in my mind that has never happened and question what I would do or how I might react if they came to be. I feel all emotions and act them out within my minds eye feeling joy if it is something wonderful, profound sadness if it’s a dark place I visit.
I wondered if all folks have minds that rage out of control and speculated what it might be like to think about things as they came to be…to live within the moment, not looking back or forward. I have tried to think about each moment in time as it unfolds but it felt as if I was leaning against a huge dam holding back flood waters. When I stepped away I could feel a surge of thoughts as the wall bursts apart sometimes sending me to dark places other times filling me with joy. It all depends on the feelings I held back.
In the morning after two cups of coffee and I’ll be in my hiking shoes…wonder where my feet or mind will take me.
Sandyz 
