All is well here in the valley as I continue to walk/meditate most days. I wish I was disciplined enough to say everyday but some days I lack motivation. I’m working on that shortcoming. I did get out this morning and walk four miles and was thrilled I again saw mother deer and her twins down along the stream. A little squirrel waited until I was daringly close before slipping into the roadside brush.

A cool front has drifted across the mountains with temperatures down in the 50’s at night high 70’s through the day. It is a welcome relief from the high 80’s. I look forward to the changing of seasons; even thoughts of snow excite me. Just maybe this year well have a white Christmas. I know…much too early to be looking Christmas way.

Not much news on health issues, waiting for tests to be run, files to be sent and more Dr’s to see. Seems the calendar is dotted with visits here and there, I try my best not to worry. Someone told me “worry” was the devils playground…I think of that when thoughts turn negative. I take my self back into the moment and enjoy time as it unfolds.

All is well between husband and me much better than anticipated. I suppose being cautiously optimistic isn’t a bad thing…given our past. One thing we try not to do is dig up bones, but ever so often husband asks how I can possibly love him when there are many broken promises between us. I don’t dwell on it…that was yesterday this is today.

I continue to work on my manuscript and other little stories that come to life within my mind. It is an odd feeling to realize for the first time I have the opportunity to do what I love and love what I do. I hope once my back problems are no longer an issue I will find a job that better suits me, one I enjoy going to not something I wake up grumbling about the horrible day before me.

There is always hope.

Sandyz