I was apprehensive today wondering what I should do, which direction, what path. I drove myself crazy at work going over his letters in my mind, reading between the lines, thinking of what he didn’t say. It dawned on me after I got home and took a look around I am already on a course and moving forward. I am too exhausted to pack again and hit the open road, I have barely exhaled. It almost feels as if I would be racing backward. I am not ready for any more change, except if a great job opens up.

I don’t need a sign, a crystal ball, just keep going forward. I have only been in this state for seven months, I have a job, Dr's, Dentist, and last week I got the oil in the Blazer changed. I am taking care of myself and I think I worry too much about tomorrows. If the path I am on is meant to take me across state lines some day the signs in front of me will not be so blurry. I’ll not fret and feel nervous wondering if my choice is the right one, or worry about how I’ll get everything moved.

The dust hasn’t settled from all the relocating I have done these last months; I need to sit back, stop thinking so much, and live.

(I hope I feel this way tomorrow. I found a meditation CD by Wayne Dyer, "Change Your thoughts" I am going try meditating again)

Sandyz