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4:52 A.M. - Wednesday, Dec. 07, 2005 The requests from my new boss have started, asking me about working over time, as I said I look "normal." The confusion in my mind intensifies midway through my shift so after 12 hours I again feel as the though I am something the cat has brought home. I am hesitant about complaining about the intense pressure I feel in my head as the Dr. has told me this is a process of healing. Last week I quietly turned down his asking what day I would be coming in for over time, this week I may end up adding in the least an extra 8 hour shift. Many others are giving up off time to help out during this extremely busy time and I feel bad saying, "Sorry fellow workers you are on your own." Last night when I walked through the door at 8 pm ate dinner and was in bed by 9:30. This morning I feel pretty good, hoping the headaches get further apart as my shift begins. The things I notice different about my being is I am quieter, enjoy alone time more, feel more distant, and I am tired. Time they the Dr's say it all takes time. Tonight when I come through the door to my comfy little house I will avoid the mirror that hangs in the living room as I am not really interested in what the cat will drag in. Sandyz
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